Bill Jaynes: Drawings and Mind Wanderings

IF-Popular

2012-02-14T06:26:00.000-08:00

I think no matter who you are being popular will go to your head. How can it not? The media is really good at helping the rising popular star float up with an ever expanding head of hot air then waiting for the inevitable POP and reporting the ensuing mess that it makes.

IF-Suspense

2012-02-07T18:22:00.000-08:00

What will happen next?

IF-Forward

2012-01-31T06:39:00.000-08:00

Life moves forward. It never stops. We move forward with it if we want to or not. Oh, the pain of holding on to the past: the baggage that binds. I'm told to let go. Why is that so hard?

IF-Twirl

2012-01-25T06:47:00.000-08:00

Twirl is fun, light. So is Swirl. When things become a whirl then life is a bit more frantic. Then there is the tornado, you just have to retreat somewhere low and hidden when this kind of spin happens, let it pass, and hope the destruction is not to much. Or if all is lost that new life will grow out of the rubble. Let's go back to the twirl. Ah, much better. See how the mind works?

IF-Prepare

2012-01-18T09:19:00.000-08:00

Like, Samme, I make a daily to-do list as part of what I do to prepare for the day. And like Samme, some days, life has prepared its own to-do list for me and on those days its best to change mine or I will be fighting a force way more powerful than I.

IF-Grounded

2012-01-08T17:37:00.000-08:00

So many self imposed limitations keep us grounded. Then as we do soar, we say something or do something foolish and whack! we find our nose stuck in the ground, wondering what just happened. But, don't give up, just pull your nose out and try again.

Conference Call/Meeting Notes

2012-01-04T16:22:00.000-08:00

For your review, my notes from the meetings. Enjoy!

IF-Highlight

2012-01-02T21:08:00.001-08:00

New Year, new and old hoops to jump through. The fire is an illusion for it only burns if you don't jump.

IF-Messenger

2011-12-28T12:09:00.000-08:00

The winged footed messenger is Mercury in Roman borrowed from the Greek god Hermes. Which ever name you prefer, this quick silver moves from the eternal world of the gods to the temporal world of us humans bringing the hopes of the new year. May this coming one be your best year ever.

From the Sketchbook

2011-12-22T05:41:00.001-08:00

A few pages from my sketchbook. Have a peaceful winter solstice.

IF-Separated

2011-12-13T10:34:00.000-08:00

Although we live in one body, it seems that our minds are separated: separated from the body, separated from its self, with many voices of the internal speaking at the same time, all with different agendas and needs thus moving us in many directions at once leaving us standing in the same place as time rushes past us.

Tickle Toes on Toemail

2011-12-13T07:03:00.000-08:00

Check out Tickle Toes on ToeMail:
http://toemail.wordpress.com/2011/12/13/long-beach-california-2/

enjoy!

IF-Brigade

2011-12-06T10:46:00.000-08:00

A bit of a stretch for a Brigade; more of a crowd on parade. This came from a sketchbook drawing which I wanted to work on.

IF-thanksgiving left over

2011-11-28T16:59:00.000-08:00

OK, so the Illustration Friday word is round...but for the last 4 days this is about how I've been feeling.

IF-Vanity

2011-11-22T06:28:00.000-08:00

OK...I'll admit it, I like looking at myself in the mirror too.

IF-Silent

2011-11-14T13:01:00.000-08:00

I find silent buzzing with energy and mystery. I could use some silent now.

IF-stripes

2011-11-08T14:39:00.000-08:00

IF-Scary

2011-10-31T14:05:00.000-07:00

On a day like today, scary is fun. But the scariest everyday are the fears we give ourselves.

IF-Fuel

2011-10-24T17:27:00.000-07:00

Fuel Up!

IF-Scattered

2011-10-17T13:35:00.000-07:00

It's all in the mind.

It's Complicated

2011-10-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

Life seems to vacillate from complicated complexity to clarity in this organic flowing of forms.

IF-Contraption

2011-10-11T06:05:00.000-07:00

Our mind builds contraptions of thought which we then live in.

IF-Hibernate

2011-10-05T08:44:00.000-07:00

The truth is that I love to hibernate, hide away from the world in the peace of the inner. But, alas the outer is always calling to come back out and attend to its desires.

Faces at a Meeting

2011-10-01T06:45:00.000-07:00

Here are some of the faces at a recent meeting I attended. They all seemed to have downcast smiles. Did they know something that I didn't?

IF-Ferocious

2011-09-27T12:19:00.000-07:00

War Games

Gators

2011-09-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

Recent Sketchbook drawings of stuffed gators.

IF-Mesmerizing

2011-09-20T18:35:00.000-07:00

Our dog Charlie is mesmerized by food or any treat. If fact he turns into a circus performer at any sign of getting some.

IF-Boundaries

2011-09-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

Boundaries are self imposed although it seems that the outside world is forcing us in. Breaking your own boundaries can be liberating with a passage of danger, real or imagined.

IF-Mysterious

2011-09-05T15:18:00.000-07:00

The moon speaks the language of the quiet unknown of the shadow places, the hidden which are not seen but felt inside.

IF-Disguise

2011-08-30T07:24:00.000-07:00

Inspired by Mexican Masks. I always feel like each week I'm just touching the tip of the iceberg with each of the words.

IF-Influence

2011-08-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

IF-Swell

2011-08-15T13:35:00.000-07:00

Things are just swell!

IF-Imperfect

2011-08-08T15:16:00.000-07:00

yep! We are and it is.

IF-Obsession

2011-08-01T15:17:00.000-07:00

The single thought focus of an obsession or monomania can be a productive tool. The energy is directed like a laser beam of committed intent that can be used to achieve. However, with an obsession that slips into an all consuming thought and desire the productive can turn destructive as the obsessed spirals in their encrusted world of emotional thoughts that imprison the mind from seeing any other possibilities.

IF-Perennial

2011-07-25T15:16:00.000-07:00

I like perennial. It has a universal permanence to it that threads through time connecting the ages; past to present; present to past. This provides a grounding in a life and world that is temporal with the constant changing of technologies which move at light speed and require continuous updating. I've heard it said that the only constant is change but I prefer to think that some truths are timeless..

IF-Gesture

2011-07-18T15:24:00.000-07:00

From the Sketchbook

2011-07-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

"The greedy rat found a dollar and held it up in delight. Oh, want a lucky rodent he is."

IF-Stay

2011-07-11T07:27:00.000-07:00

A quiet evening stay at home with the family is a treat to enjoy.

Meeting Notes

2011-07-07T03:57:00.000-07:00

Here's the notes for those of you who missed the meeting or want to compare.

IF-Remedy

2011-07-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

I've heard that still quiet, rest, and some sleep are powerful remedies.

SILA Notes: Using Social Media as a Business Tool

2011-06-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

A big thank you to Society of Illustrators Los Angeles (SILA) and panelists, Marilyn Scott-Water, Kim Dwinell, and Cliff Cramp for sharing their knowledge and insight into using social media and web resources as tools for illustration success, both business and artistic. SILA will follow up sessions in July and August. Check the SILA website for details. http://www.si-la.org/blog/

IF-Midsummer Night

2011-06-26T07:07:00.000-07:00

Odd, but this one didn't want to go any further than this drawing. So I've left it at that. The drawing was done on a napkin at a coffee house after some very good friends had left. I was still basking in their good aura. Enjoy.

Review- Intelligentsia Coffee Silver Lake

2011-06-24T18:50:00.000-07:00

Review- Intelligentsia Coffee Silver Lake

Great Building

Great Coffee

Beautiful hip people
A good place to draw all the interesting characters parading in their costumes

Hang out and enjoy the parade of LA’s beautiful young hipsters.

Secret, “Try parking in the neighborhood behind the coffee house because it is easy, free, peaceful and a nice walk. Just watch the no parking signs.” Intelligentsia Silver Lake is located at 3922 West Sunset Boulevard

6am - 8pm Sunday – Wednesday

6am - 11pm Thursday - Saturday

323.663.6173
3922 W Sunset Blvd.
Los Angeles, CA 90029

http://www.intelligentsiacoffee.com/locations/view/Silver+Lake+Coffeebar

Tickle Toes

2011-06-23T16:00:00.000-07:00

Asleep from the world in the flow of the collective unconscious where anything can happen. A wonderful place to be.

IF-Launch

2011-06-21T11:48:00.000-07:00

The launch of anything is an excitement and terror all at once.

IF-Swept

2011-06-13T13:24:00.000-07:00

IF-Shadows

2011-06-06T10:07:00.000-07:00

The thoughts of Shadows brings to mind Magritte paintings, mystery novels, Carl Jung and his shadow side of the self work. To look into the shadows of the self is a scary thing for "What horror will I find about myself" yet Jung thought that power and freedom could be found in the shadows with a cast of light. I think that facing the shadow side and to acknowledge its existence brings a wholeness to the self however this not always the easiest thing to do. What is in the shadows for you?

IF-Asleep

2011-05-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

Dream states, eyes closed, inner visions, asleep to the outside world and attuned to the inner.

IF-Soaked

2011-05-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

It seems I got stuck on "soaked" as rain and sad. Then my own emotion seemed to soak me me on this one. (I keep telling myself that I'm in control, I am, I am, I am) Anyway here is this week's effort. Let me know which one you like. Thanks.

IF-Safari

2011-05-16T08:44:00.000-07:00

Funny how that which we are looking for is often already with us.

IF-Beginner

2011-05-09T06:35:00.000-07:00

Each day the beginner risks walking off into the unknown which is both exciting and scary and promises an expanded experience of life.

A Wednesday Post

2011-05-04T18:36:00.000-07:00

Here are some recent sketchbook entries. Enjoy!

IF-Lesson

2011-05-03T08:30:00.000-07:00

Everyday so many lessons to be learned, re-learned and some to be unlearned.

IF-Bicycle

2011-04-25T16:17:00.000-07:00

I love to feel the wind in my face and the light hitting the trees and brush as I bicycle. I don't do it enough. But, I think I'll go and do after I post this post. Enjoy.

IF-Journey

2011-04-18T13:39:00.000-07:00

Journeys do involve travel. The travel can be external as well as internal. For me the key to a journey is that it is an experience that changes us in some way. Hopefully, with more understanding and insight than before the trip was begun.

IF-Bottled

2011-04-11T06:17:00.000-07:00

Bottled up emotions, Bottled up creativity, bottled up life, being all bottled up is frustrating.

IF-Duet

2011-04-05T05:56:00.000-07:00

Here's this week's Duet for Illustration Friday

A Thursday Morning Post

2011-03-31T06:14:00.000-07:00

This madness of March is almost over with its storms of rain, emotion, and change. I hang on, but the storm blows hard and nature has its way. There is comfort in "This too shall pass", but once its passes its gone, with all its life force and chance to live. Embrace.

IF-Toy

2011-03-28T07:30:00.000-07:00

Boy, I just would like to have the time and space to play with my toys and not worry about all the to do's.

IF-Cultivate

2011-03-21T06:19:00.000-07:00

Sow and reaping: what seeds do you cultivate?

A Saturday Post

2011-03-19T06:46:00.000-07:00

The middle of March with its choppy windblown tides and waves batters the haul of the ship of my life. In the confusion I catch glimpses of beauty: this morning’s moon glowing through a moody cloud: I see, from my car, while stopped at a traffic light, a girl and her boyfriend eating hamburgers at In and Out when suddenly the girl starts making huge circular gestural movements with her arms, not in anger, but in some magical grace that the boyfriend drinks up with delight. Then just as fast as it happened the girl returns to a subdued fast food patron. The traffic light changes and I turn right.

IF-Stir

2011-03-14T06:37:00.000-07:00

The whole weekend was a stir that turned into a swirl with an off balance delight of over activity.

IF-Warning

2011-03-07T06:30:00.000-08:00

There are times when our own wanting safety blinds us from seeing and hearing the warning signs that try to keep us safe.

IF-Swarm

2011-02-28T14:57:00.000-08:00

A brain swarm is different from the brain storm. The storm is seen as a positive creative idea generation tool. The swarm is the relentless thoughts swirling in your head which can occur at any time, but often visit at night disturbing your sleep with their pointed, jagged, multi- images.

IF-Layers

2011-02-21T07:14:00.000-08:00

Layers are my life, both internal and external. Internal there is the metal and emotional pieces of having lived, and living life; floating, bumping, and intertwining with one another. Sometimes it is hard to see the outside world looking through all the debris. As I look around my outside world I see layers of material stuff: piles of books, clothing, tools, etc. from this point of my life and earlier parts all layered on top of one another. The baggage that weighs and also defines what life has been about.

IF-Sweater

2011-02-14T06:27:00.000-08:00

I wear sweaters. They keep me warm and bring out the dad and teacher in me.

IF-Reverse

2011-02-06T17:46:00.000-08:00

A reverse can be a step forward, although it never feels like it at the time.

The Flow

2011-02-02T06:30:00.000-08:00

The Flow is fast and furious. The wind chimes are sounding the rush. the dawn light is ascending.

IF-Surrender

2011-01-30T16:25:00.000-08:00

Surrender; is it a defeat or a blessing? I guess that depends to whom or what you are surrendering too.

IF - Dusty

2011-01-24T06:12:00.000-08:00

In the dusty recesses of my mind an archetypal cowboy lives gleaned from childhood experiences of The Rifleman Man, BB guns and Grandpa’s cowboy hat. This cowboy is a strong individualist, a loner, who lives by a cowboy code and walks, every night, into the sunset.

IF-Chicken

2011-01-18T09:18:00.000-08:00

Here are some.

1 11 2011

2011-01-11T14:07:00.000-08:00

A haunting cold austere January wind has been blowing through my mind. Just relax and do. Everything is OK.

The Meetings in Review

2011-01-06T13:14:00.000-08:00

Here's my notes to compare with yours. Enjoy!

The New Year

2011-01-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

All the holiday lights have turned off. The blackness of the beginning of January is here. Looking forward, new beginnings, a new chance on life are its promise. Resolutions and hopes have been made and now the work of living continues. Along with the work allow some “joie de vivre” in as well.

December 30, 2010

2010-12-30T10:30:00.000-08:00

This year has been like the first part of pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey; blind-folded, spun around, and given tasks to do. I’m happy to have a few moments to rest, plan, and look ahead. Looking back, we were in San Francisco for a few days this week where we rode MUNI way too much and I drank too much espresso. One of the highlights was Fort Point. This is a national park site right under the Golden Gate Bridge. Dramatic views of the bridge, the City and ocean. The sea roars against the rocks up onto the pavement. And a few surfers were riding waves there.

Winter Solstice

2010-12-21T07:47:00.000-08:00

Quiet…listen…for one moment the earth stops spinning and all is still. A profound peace will flow through you if you let it. Then blink and you are back to the rush of life. Carry the peace with you, use it as needed.

Mid December

2010-12-14T06:39:00.000-08:00

Another week, lots of debris in the river of life to negotiate and a fog filled sky covering the guiding Polaris. Well then, just do the thing you know to do and see if the river and sky clear up.

2010-12-07T10:34:00.000-08:00

My mind wants to wander its recesses and dream....the adult duties call me back.

2010-11-30T10:19:00.001-08:00

The currents, flows, storms and pressures of the ocean of life continue to push, pull and stress. There is little time to rest and reflect. More to follow…....

2010-11-23T07:00:00.001-08:00

The sea in my belly is whipped by the storm of a funnel cloud of fear which feeds on itself. The tiny boat sheltering the self is pushed around in the storm’s waves. The winds of outside duties bang against the vessel. The only hope is to take refuge in the clam eye of the tempest, let the fears subside and tend to the tasks at hand.

2010-11-16T11:23:00.000-08:00

Some weeks you feel as if you've lived a whole year. Last week was one of those.

Aim the Arrow, Let it Go

2010-11-09T09:56:00.000-08:00

It is later than you think. Do it now or it may never get done. Aim the arrow of action from the depths of your soul out to where needs to go. Let the arrow fly through all your fears of what can go wrong. It just may be a disaster, but freedom is the reward.

Morning Again

2010-11-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

As a middle aged man with middle class life I run outside in the predawn morning to put out the garbage before the trash squeals down the street to pick it up. I look up at the morning moon and stars and they smile, inviting me to dance with them. I smile back and I’m dancing in a eternity that lasts only a few moments as I’m called back to the house and the duties of a middle aged man in a middle class life.

Pink

2010-10-26T10:02:00.000-07:00

Here is a pink San Diego Charger. The art was done for Howie Rosen at the San Diego Reader. The work is scheduled to run as the November 3 cover.

Fragments

2010-10-19T09:13:00.000-07:00

Fragments float around the mind in a fuzzy focus of fog on the sea of consciousness. No complete sentences or thoughts. Just pieces bobbing together. They drift in and out until one of them screams for immediate attention. Then the body acts. The emergency subsides. Now go back to enjoying the flow.

Tuesday

2010-10-12T06:16:00.000-07:00

The ghosts orange of October haunt me inside and out. There is so much to keep up with. I want to hide under the covers and just sleep. But the outside world calls with it demands, I answer for I know that not doing so brings pain. Awake.

Go Fish

2010-10-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

We learned a new work attitude and philosophy called”Fish” at a company meeting held near the ocean in Newport Beach, CA. The philosophy is about having fun and making someone’s day by throwing metaphorical (or real) fish at them. It’s ok to throw the fish as long as you choose your attitude; Smiling good, frowning bad.

Fall Heat

2010-09-28T06:46:00.001-07:00

I saw the morning sun stream though the trees. The moon quietly smiled form the other side of the sky. Then the heat hit in a blaze of orange. A restless day and night followed. Now, a new day begins.

Today To Do's

2010-09-21T09:46:00.000-07:00

This foggy morning blankets the inward directed thoughts. To linger in this slowly drifting, floating mental state a little longer would be oh so nice. I’ve already wrote today’s to do list. The to do’s magnetic pull is tugging my mind in their direction. Are they a lighthouse guiding the journey from the siren song of pleasurable disaster? Or just the fence that keeps life in check in the artificial safety of self imposed normalcy? For myself I need both the fog and the map.

Morning Stars

2010-09-14T05:47:00.000-07:00

A shooting star streaked across the morning sky. Worries are the pins and needles that we use to poke into the voodoo doll of the self. Pieces from the tail of the star fell in a gentle rain of grace. The worries dissolved into a sea of peace momentarily glimpsed. Dawn arrived with its demands.

Summer Has Slipped into Fall

2010-09-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

Summer has slipped into fall. I know the calendar still says summer, but the world around says fall. The kids are back in school and the weather is cooler. The daylight is getting shorter. I see football on TV and signs of Halloween are popping up. Transition and change again as I want hold onto something stable, but change is the only outside world constant. So I let go of summer to be in the fall with all its variations. Begin again.

Good Morning

2010-08-30T04:41:00.000-07:00

My peaceful sleep is interrupted by the lightning bolts of anxiety in my gut. 2:44 am, Oh crap what am I forgetting to do? My inner universe is a storm. So I clean the studio. As I walk outside to throw away the trash I hear the sounds of late summer insects singing their songs to the approaching change of seasons. The outer universe of early morning is calm and quiet. A few stars wink at me knowingly seeming to say,” You fool, all is well, just do the next step.” So I close the trash can lid, walk back into the house and plan the day and week. My inner storm calms and clears a bit.

Morning Moon

2010-08-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

As I awoke this morning I saw the moon hanging low in the sky glowing through the trees. The color of a light low saturated violet surrounded it. The day begins with its tasks to do. What will I hold in mind today? Will it be the morning moon or the knot of worry in my gut? Which will fuel the doing of the tasks and my experience of the day? Worry can make me jump into action, but can make a troubled tortured experience. Moon glow is so nice to stand and drink in, but I can get so lost in it that no work gets done. Is there a way to use worry as the kick starter and moon beams as the internal experience as the jobs are performed?

Slow Before You Say Hello to the Get Go

2010-08-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

Sunday morning. It’s really time for some slow, not go. Yet I know, the get go, is just around the corner. I can feel it whispering in the breeze. But as Ram Das said, “Be here now.” So I will rest in the silence of the morning even as the compass of my interior world is being pulled to the starting line. Exhale.

PS this is blog post number 100

August

2010-08-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

Fractured and spacey that is what the last week had been. Maybe it’s the nature of August with its sun and people vacationing and the transition into fall oh so slightly around the corner. I saw a surfing contest and a play about turning 13. Funny if I was turning 13 the surfing contest would have been so important to me. Now it was just interesting to see the visual drama of people, venders, waves and sand. But this is a new week with new adventures. I turn my focus forward to embrace and create this week.

Monday Morning

2010-08-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

The same old fears and anxieties haunt me. Things like the speed at which time passes and the dichotomy of the knot of fear in my stomach juxtaposed against the beauty of the quiet of the morning with its elusive low light that oh so slowly becomes the brightness of day and the soft breeze that touches the side of my face. Beauty is here for a moment then the worries inside overshadow. Yet, the anxieties feel like the choppy sea on the surface of the ocean which at its depths is calm.
Ok so much for the inner reflections, if you are near Downtown San Diego, Ca try eating at Blue Water Seafood on India Street. It is a bit of a dive, but the fish is oh so good. http://www.bluewater.sandiegan.com/

Good Morning

2010-07-24T08:21:00.001-07:00

Quiet Saturday morning and the house is still asleep. The thoughts and ghosts in the mind of have faded to the background. The “Now” has moved forward on the stage. I’ll blink and the rush of day will take over. But for now I’ll drink in and be nourished by the moment and remember to come back to it, the now, in the rush later.

ICON 6 Notes: Some Talking Heads

2010-07-18T15:32:00.000-07:00

Here are my notes from the ICON 6 conference. Four days of intense illustration worlds. I was a freeway commuter this time around. Traveling from Long Beach to Pasadena every day. Beautiful Hotel, I saw many good friends and made some new ones. I had a work gig Friday afternoon and missed what I heard was the best of the conference speakers. But overall a good show with lots of divergent points of view to digest. My favorite was Istvan Banyai. He's point of view that working from the inside out, not the outside in resonates with me. Plus his stubborn resistance to the status quo was a hoot.

I left the conference with a big buzz of illustration. Today I slept 10 hours + a one nap to recover

Directions & some ICON 6

2010-07-16T01:40:00.000-07:00

The Illustration conference Icon 6 is in Pasadena this weekend. I was at the opening night Thursday. Intense. The industry is always changing due to technological changes. The eternal timelessness of story telling doesn't. Yeevgeniya Mikhailik was showing her work at the ICON Road Show. If you didn't see it there, check out her website: http://yevgeniyadraws.com Her works exhibits wonderful drawing and story telling.

Meeting Notes

2010-07-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

Here are my meeting notes for you to compare with yours.

I come in to the two days of meetings with fresh optimismism
I feel a little lost at the intensity of the information presented

Fin