Vortex

Bouncing through life and the tasks are getting done. You’re thinking everything is ok, never mind that terror in gut you feel every morning at 4 Am., that’s just your body shocking you into action for the day. Then you make a slightly left turn, you could have chosen to go straight or right, and you are thrown into an emotional vortex of spinning. You feel out of control. But the body has a solution for you. You catch a cold and you rest and things balance out.

5:58 am Sunday Morning

5:58 am Sunday Morning, quiet, only the tick of the second hand of the clock as it makes its way around and around is heard. Then the sound of the heater starting begins. There is something very comforting about the sound of that heater. It is like an old friend who makes you feel safe. We are speeding so fast through the cosmos that relational anchors, like the sound of the heater, provide signposts to help place us, ground us in our lives. Sometimes I feel like I could spin off into the great unknown, but not the unknown of a great adventure, but the unknown, of being separated from the self, from the people and things I love. Part of this is just the movement of live. Everything is in motion and our position to everything is in constant flux. This is the flow of the multi-dimensional river of life again. The heater turned off. I hear the sound of my daughter breathing in her sleep.

To Do Lists

Every Day I write to do Lists. Some days these guys show up on them.