Fear & Beauty

I hear the morning quiet, a moment of peace from the clamor of life. I woke up with a fear in my gut, a deep feeling of loss of place in the universe. That fear of death thing again. We are all so small and so large at the same time. We are the center of the universe and only a small speck in it. I feel a flow of meaning to being here and we are the ones who give meaning to life. No wonder we all escape into all the diversions of email, television, overeating and addictions. We don’t want to feel the pain. Yet in every moment there is beauty. In a doctor’s office we are told of a relative’s cancer and I see the most beautiful piece light filtering through the window blinds. Maybe the heightened awareness of the moment that lets in the pain also lets in the wonder.

Floating Orange Violet

The experience of time and space expands and contracts though out the day. The pressures of the outside world collide with pressures of the internal world. Surrender to the flow for more control.

Gators

The flow is fast now. There is much to do. A fall harvest is in progress.

Holiday Travel

So many drifting faces in the crowd passed me by this weekend. There was just time enough to see a glimpse of each and observe a tiny piece of their life.

Heat

Southern California is hot and on fire today. The month has changed and for me the river of life has quickened and is pulling me furiously forward. My heart wants to hide in a quiet, still, back water and rest in the drifting images of my mind. But forward focus is now. Eyes open are needed to navigate the yet to be revealed.