My deepest fears seem close to the surface today. But it is a beautiful summer’s day outside so here are some things I’m thankful for: my family, swimming, orange juice, time, freedom, connections, art, drawing, finding the strength to take the next step, the mystery of a deep summer’s night, trusting that all is really well if I let it be, the touch of the wind blowing in, the soft sound of the wind chimes….
Monday, June 22, 2009
I think to most of the outside world I am easy going and wanting to connect with smiles. Real smiles, the ones filled with Joy. But, I start drawing and my shadow side is drawn out. Scary I don’t think I can control it. It is just there. But if I continue drawing the shadows pass.
Monday, June 8, 2009
My mind, for a long time, has been trying to reconcile the dichotomy of eternal truths of expansive timelessness and the temporal realities of time bound necessities of things like making a living. These two worlds seem separate but in the same place at the same time. Especially while walking the dog, I find I move between these worlds as I glimpse eternity in the morning light reflecting off a tree and then I move to the temporal as I am in my head worrying about money or my family.
Monday, June 1, 2009
I think there is a Jung idea, something like the only protection from our shadow side is bringing the darkness into the light, embrace it, and accept it and then our power will come from it. Still the dark is scary.
Hey, do you know this piece of music, This Beat by the Jazz Suspects? Wow, in this moment it is really great! No Shadow, just flow.